"The woods are lovely, dark and deep, but I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep."

Saturday, April 21, 2007

My Epiphany

Reflecting on our lives is often brought on by significant events. Unfortunately events which produce this form of self evaluation are too often tragic. The events of this past week have for me produced nothing short of an epiphany.

My eyes have opened after being closed for too long and what I’ve seen about myself has left me filled with regret, shame and sorrow. For I am guilty of allowing myself to become emotionally detached from the most important person in my life; my best friend; my life partner; my lover; my wife.

Over the course of the past 11 years Beth has steadfastly stood by me, weathering each storm, many of which I now recognize were of my own making. Her love and commitment to our marriage vows – for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer - have never wavered.

She never gave up even though she had every right to do so.

She never stopped loving me even though I have been unworthy and undeserving.

She never lost faith even though I haven’t been there for her.

She has loved me unconditionally even though I lost sight of what unconditional love means.

My eyes are no longer closed and I am grateful it is her beautiful face that I now see.

Thank you for not giving up on me; on us.

I love you Beth, now and forever.


Fe-lady said...

Lucky man! Luckier lady!

Fe-lady said...

Yeah! I can comment now! I have been trying for a week...did you change something? Or was I just not signing in correctly to be able to do so?
Glad it's fixed anyway! I was going to post next about "How does one comment on Tim's site?"
Thanks for reading my blog! :-)

Beth said...

I love you too!

Amy said...

Your posts always make me get that little lumpy thing in my throat...and I'm not even a cryer!

Glad you have each other!